SO WHAT?

Yeah, so what if I fell?
so what if I made mistakes?
so what if I grovelled in mud?
so what if I feel disgraced?
I still have myself to summon,
Hell, I dont want an Undo button.

With Time...

Memories are supposed to fade
Strings are supposed to break
You say that Time is the best healer
Tilt the hourglass for me then.

How to be a friend?

What is a friend?
What is the job of a friend?
Is it to stand beside?
Is it to lend a shoulder to cry?
Is it a way to confide?
Or is it a way to fool your mind?

Incepted

Yesterday, I watched the movie Inception. And how was it? Well... my reaction is ITS A GODDAMNED FREAKING MINDBLOWINGLY MINDBOGGLING EPIC GODLY AWESOME MOVIE!!! Its a movie to be watched atleast 3 times to fully appreciate the masterpiece, if not 5 times. As I watched the movie, I realised this is going to be an awesome movie, so I kept a lookout throughout the whole movie for a single slip, a single mistake, and, I did not find it. After watching it and replaying it and mulling over it in my mind, I still havent. If you asked me to rate the movie I would rate it 9.999999..... not giving it the perfect 10 for the simple reason that I am biased to believe that nothing is perfect. This movie is worth watching even if you undergo a torture session to watch it. Well. At least thats what I feel.

Watching this movie was like a parallel world experience for me, as if I was really sharing a dream with somebody. Chris Nolan's dream. And boy, what a dream, does he get his facts so straight. The concept, the story, the details, the special effects, even the ideas like, weaving the subcounscious and the conscious with the unreal and real, 'the kick', 'the totem',"extractor', 'architect', 'forger', 'chemist', deja vu, dream within a dream, paradox and never ending loops (explained by penrose's steps/ impossible staircase), how the subconscious effects the conscious (both positively and negatively), training and experimenting with your subconscious, the horror of being lost and facing the demons lurking within you, and last but not the least 'the limbo'. Such concepts on which people will probably spend hours and pages explaining, he brings them all together like a fine tuned orchestra just for his audience within a timespan of two and half hours. Even the structure of the movie is like a dream, folding upon itself.

The movie reminded me of the Matrix (a simple idea that our world is not real) and Shutter Island, and I can probably spend hours talking nonstop about the parallel implications that each of the individual ideas used in this movie made me think of and how they were so in agreement with the concepts; of which the most intriguing was the use of the term limbo with reference to a dream. Limbo, according to Christianity, is a mythical place where people who die with original sin end up in. Its neither heaven nor hell, just the border. In medical practice, it means coma. Where you are just on the border of being alive or dead, being conscious or unconscious. In the movie, limbo is the ultimate deepest level of a dream, where you have only pure raw infinite subconscious to face. I was blown away!!

This movie has so many open strings for the viewer to debate upon (I wont even dare touch the subject of the ending), I questioned each one of them and tried to find out if anyone of them was a mistake on the part of the director. But I could only come up with alternate answers. Was that really done on purpose???

An idea is really the most resilient parasite and true inspiration is truly impossible to fake.... I am thoroughly and thoroughly Incepted.

Confessions of an infected mind

The games that I play are unending

Its the way of life I find worth living 

  Pushing myself beyond my limit 

  Is the only way I find to to cure It 

Inevitably drawn towards complications 

  What do I do when I run out of distractions? 

  Sleep is your lady, she refuses to be in my lair; 

The only dreams that I have are nightmares

Illusion

This physical world responds
to our fears and desires
this notion is something that
I find disturbing to understand

And if God would reflect
upon his prized creation
would he be proud, happy?
or would it be a mistake sad?

Cracked mirrors echo
the secrets hidden most
shy away if you want to
or are you ready for the fall?

Your World is your Mind
your Mind is your World
a perpetual paradox
Elusive illusion, covers it all.

Striking a balance

Seal it with a flourish and smile
But be prepared to pay the fine

Turn your head both the ways
And not ever ever get swayed

Its the razor-sharp edge of a knife
Tip-toe, hang on to dear life

On one side is hell,  another pain divine
Be careful, you walk on a thin hot red line.

Sing me a lullaby

Sing me a lullaby
I need to close my eyes

Its been long since the sun
Has kissed the sky goodbye
And she blushing pink and crimson let
Bejeweled black hair down with a sigh

Silent is the blowing wind
Silent is this night
Stars gaze down at the earth
With their silent eyes

Sing me a lullaby
I need to close my eyes

The birds have gone back to their nests

Where they are eagerly awaited

But I eagerly await you sleep,

To come down upon my two eyes

Dear sleep lets end this strife,

Bury me in my mother's arms

Whisper your night song in my ear

And caress my fears goodbye

Sing me a lullaby

I need to close my eyes.

Everything Fades Away

Silhouettes loom in the corridors

Like ghosts in the corners of my mind

This walk is never ending;

In search of a path that I'll never find.

Meant to live, meant to breathe

This world is a perfect place to hide,

The mechanical life goes on

With reality, some dreams don't collide.

For once this bleary town

Had looked so different that night

Blood sang out of me from nowhere

Had never felt so alive.

Its still good to have  memories

A slow smile creeping up at low tide

Soon swallowed by waves of emptiness

Seasoned with self-pride.

Want to wake up kicking screaming,

Imbibe each drop till I burst with life

Hollow, brain-dead, broken

But the spirit refuses to die.

Whats not meant to be, will never be

No matter what you feel, do or say;

Once again I learn my lesson

Everything fades away.

Silliness

On the window sill,
I saw a little kitten run by
Aiming and jumping
after an elusive butterfly.

I watched curiously
laughing, I almost fell off my chair
Coz as much as it tried,
The kitten kept missing it by a hair.

Even if it did catch it
that would be the end of the game
What you want and what you get;
May not actually be the same.

Run along as much as you want
After this and that and that,
The pursuit of happiness is pointless;
Be practical, stupid cat!