There are times
when I realize
that Darkness is
my only friend
Its the only one
to understand me

I can let this mask
slip off me
I don't need
to pretend to be happy
I don't need
to put on a smile
I don't need to
think of anything

I let Darkness
wash over me
like a cold sea wave
Within moments
I get lost
in Darkness
I lap it all
Like a thirsty dog.

In the end
all that this
Darkness wants
is me.
There are no walls;
I don't fight against it.
I know
it will consume me.

But that's not
so bad because

Darkness is
the only one
to whom I can turn to
Darkness is
the only thing
to want me
Darkness is
all that I have.

On the tip of a dagger so fine
I want to crush your soul
The way you crushed mine.

Here I go again
On this ride of seething pain
Seasoned with
numbness
dumbness
confusion
and self-destruction

How many times is it now?
Oh, wow, I lost count.