Saturday, October 13, 2012
Friday, August 31, 2012
I just keep discovering new levels of messed-upness. I dont know what to do about them. Although I was briefly bothered about my sanity, I think I have really given up on doing anything about it. Somehow, giving up on myself makes me feel, at the very least, peaceful. That's good enough, for now.
Its not like I want to give up. I try to chit-chat with people to distract myself from what goes inside. It works most of the times. But the truth is, most of the times, people are really busy. And I see myself spiraling down.
Writing it out, will hopefully, be able to substitute, the need for friends.
Its not like I want to give up. I try to chit-chat with people to distract myself from what goes inside. It works most of the times. But the truth is, most of the times, people are really busy. And I see myself spiraling down.
Writing it out, will hopefully, be able to substitute, the need for friends.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Oh well, I watched the famous first episode of SMJ. And when everybody is debating how right or wrong our society is in allowing female foeticide, all I could debate on was whether my mother's decision was ultimately right or wrong. People would see not killing me before I was born, to be right... somehow, I cant agree.
Was it really the right thing to do?
That's all I can think of. Probably very selfish of me to think so, but then we don't really have much control our thoughts, do we? At least I am allowed to think.
Was it really the right thing to do?
That's all I can think of. Probably very selfish of me to think so, but then we don't really have much control our thoughts, do we? At least I am allowed to think.
Monday, March 19, 2012
There are times
when I realize
that Darkness is
my only friend
Its the only one
to understand me
I can let this mask
slip off me
I don't need
to pretend to be happy
I don't need
to put on a smile
I don't need to
think of anything
I let Darkness
wash over me
like a cold sea wave
Within moments
I get lost
in Darkness
I lap it all
Like a thirsty dog.
In the end
all that this
Darkness wants
is me.
There are no walls;
I don't fight against it.
I know
it will consume me.
But that's not
so bad because
Darkness is
the only one
to whom I can turn to
Darkness is
the only thing
to want me
Darkness is
all that I have.
when I realize
that Darkness is
my only friend
Its the only one
to understand me
I can let this mask
slip off me
I don't need
to pretend to be happy
I don't need
to put on a smile
I don't need to
think of anything
I let Darkness
wash over me
like a cold sea wave
Within moments
I get lost
in Darkness
I lap it all
Like a thirsty dog.
In the end
all that this
Darkness wants
is me.
There are no walls;
I don't fight against it.
I know
it will consume me.
But that's not
so bad because
Darkness is
the only one
to whom I can turn to
Darkness is
the only thing
to want me
Darkness is
all that I have.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
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